~Queen Q~

2010-03-02T17:37:00.003+08:00

harlooow!! anyone there... :)))))

2008-12-30T14:22:00.004+08:00

Looking at the rate of how fast time goes by, i'm not too sure if anyone particularly myself can do things or achieve as many things i desired for.

2008 will definitely be marked for rest of my life. I lost the only person that i could trust 100%, someone so dear to me, my mother.

But i kinda have submit myself to fate, so instead of being selfish to see her suffer every day, i have to accept what i have lost.

Sometimes i realised i did not have the chance to fulfil many things that a daughter should have for her mom.

But all i can offer now is just prayers that she's somewhere called Heaven.

Besides losing her, i almost lost someone else too but that did not happen. The person is stillwith me and am crossing my finger that such things never happen again, Never.

It's so dissapointing, sad and my patience was definitely running out thus thinking that its just over. But i guess it was more like a test for both of us, So that we dont take for granted that certain things needs to be look after indeed. Escaping to London helps a lot too!

Well, that episode is over and coming into 2009, i have no resolutions fixed except that i just am hoping for a much better year. Like getting pregnant or wht...hahah. Getting a year older makes me realised that there's no need to wait for this and that, just go for it if u want it.

Its been a week since i move in to my dad's house. Our flat has been sold! at last! it was so frustating keeping up with the monthly instalments since it was constantly increasing every year! $1900 a month realy sucks!

But still taking my time before we start looking for a new flat. 4 of us are sleeping together in one room. Cookie & Oreo are kinda enjoying it as they have their little hse to sleep in at night. Just that my asthma has also act up recently due to sleeping with them.

Keep using my inhaler that i do nt know if it will cause damage to myself. chett! Just too lazy to see the doctor. Probably i shld do so soon.

Ok, adios to my blog here, c u soon.

PS: I love her very much. There is not a day that i go through without thinking of her.

2008-08-28T14:01:00.002+08:00

i'm lovin the idea that i'm leaving this place sooner than i thought. But seriosly it scared the hell-out-of me that i'm making this decision.

what decisions??

one > to resign from my JOB
two> to earn a living so far from home > LONDON actually [Best kan!!??- Insya-Allah terkabur]
three> my house SOLD!

of coz i have no problem fulfiling the first one. ambik kau!

But the second was a difficult one actually. To leave Mak who's not in perfect health now ...but i know that she's be in good hands though i am not around plus it will be a trial first for a few months to see if we can get use to life there.

Mom condition is stable i must say. She's not improving but still maintaining. She has stop chemo for a few weeks due to lack of water.
She's in the hospital now as there was some in inconsistency in her heart beat. Still waiting for the cardiologist to monitor her condition.

It's been coming to 8 months since she has been diagnosed Contrary to what we were told intially that she had 3 months only,
i pray all the time seeking for strength for her to go through it. Though things are progressing slow, it's not bad either.

Moving on...we have managed to sell off our flat just last week! Once our first appointment is fixed, we can proceed to book our tixs and plan the next phrase of our lives. Things are slighlty better between me and him.

Alhamdulillah, i'm taking it one at a time and treat it as a part and parcel of marriage.

There's just so much to write here but guess i dont have the time and inspiration yet.

I'll drop by again soon though :)

2008-08-09T17:30:00.003+08:00

Why is that serious problems often decides to lump together and come downs on u at the same bloody time?

Humans make mistakes, yes, i so know that, even i do. But each of us have brains to make use of to separate bad and good.

It's so damn streesful to live a life like that.

2008-08-02T11:04:00.003+08:00

after so long, i can actually blog at work now! not sure if it's a good thing or not, cuz once the forever useless webbie is up, then i have lotsa of reports to do!

no work means u can get off your mind to relax a bit but when there is no work, u tend to remember about all your problems. It's so sickening, cuz all this is making me confused, angry and of cuz sad. Its keeps bugging me that i have not make the correct decision yet. That i am still here..still thinking.. Its always in my prayers that i asked Allah to show me the correct path and not a path with full of regrets in the future. But i guess HE have other plans for me, so till now, i am still finding.

Sometimes i tell myself, the worst thing that can happen. I mean, if we are not destined then we are sOO not gonna be. But if we r, we may just die with each other company.

What irked me most is, i felt that its only me who's trying and not the other party.
Does it mean, the other does not care!??? Arghh!!!

wht shld i do? i wish i could find the answer soon. ....

2008-07-26T11:31:00.001+08:00

maybe it's just not meant to be......

2008-07-10T16:53:00.002+08:00

In my pathetic attempt to save it, i swear i have to conceded in the end.

my heart crushed when i have to swallow to the fact that i've been lied to again and again.

i have to scream quietly in my heart and find all the answers and figured myself to put back the pieces back.

no words, absolutely no words can describe how one feel when splash on with so much betrayal from someone you love most.

i wished it was just a nightmare. i wished all this would not happen at this point of my life.

It is my mistake? or it is just fate. I have cried so much, until there's just not much left.

i was lying to myself that it will work out, after all we've been through almost everything together.

I thought time will heal all, but i was wrong.

Now, i am losing it. I just want you out of my life.

2008-07-05T04:21:00.003+08:00

If there is any chance of turning back, i would have not done it like i did.

everything seems to happening for the wrong reasons. everything.

i am not sure if i can shoulder all this.

All at the same time.

2008-06-12T08:34:00.000+08:00

Lazy days are here again!!

2008-06-11T10:27:00.002+08:00

Its wednesday, at home now. been sometime since i cuddle up in front of my PC and tried to ease my mind while blogging. for the record here, i am on mc today. Migraine's been acting up. it supposedly left long time ago. I had to lie on the bed in complete darkness for at least few hrs for it to subside.That was yesterday. Feeling better today except for mild grogyness.

Anyway, mum's condition is weaker since my last entry. Her chemo have stop for almost a month already as her kidney lack of water. And when the kidney is not healthy, one cannot do chemo.
She's been hospitalised almost weekly for the past at least 3 weeks. There was no improvement of the cancer cells since her last scan.
She's also been throwing up a lot the other time and at the moment not allowed to consume solid food.
Its been 6 months since her diagnosis and she's still holding on.
Insya-Allah she will just get better soon.

Looking at another direction, my yearly contract at work has just recently been renewed for another year. But no complains, at least an increment is good enough. But there was some news which comes with the increment, which until now i am whispering to myself if i'm capable of doing it.

Cuz the last time i remembered, after i got the 'additional responsibilities', i quitted. I quitted from a job that i tght i will be stuck for the rest of my life there. Hahhah...so this time i gotta be careful and be wiser. We'll c how things turn out in the next few months.

Life hasnt been easy like before but not hard as others. I have to bear that in mind.

2008-04-17T13:32:00.002+08:00

Feeling vexed up for the past few days.

Guess the root of it came from my sleeping disorder.

Had a difficult time falling asleep. Those late dinners ends up making me feeling bloated!

The hot weather making it worse. But i am looking forward to weekends.

Lotsa of plans, hope i have the 'mood' to enjoy the weekends compare to the previous ones.

Hopefuly...

2008-04-05T19:10:00.002+08:00

It's become a freakin problem i tell ya, when ur fats began to grow bigger than usual.
Short of breath, feeling that ur stomach may explode at any time.

That's exactly what i am feeling now. Too much of lunching - in has become a disaster!
I reckon that i'm under stress right now, so why am i putting on weight rather than losing it.
Arghhh..such a pain.

I've long dream of a short weekend gateaway so if the trip to Batam & KL is met, i'll be the most happiest person in April & May. Jgn aku kena tipu sudah..skali takde apa2 pat batam tu..cari ah korang. hehehe...

My mother has also started her chemo last week. Looks like she's doing ok, expt that the pain on her stomach is on & off. Prob she's quite new to it so no nausea yet. As we all know, the side effects will only show in a long term treatment. I just pray that she will eventually get better.

Its undeniable that she might never recover back to normal but miracle does happen rite?
So please God, let this miracle happen to her. My brother have also help a lot in looking after her. Dont think i can cope without him. We'll just have to let time prevail what's next for her.

Definitely taking in a positive way. Always taking it slowly.
Probably that explained why i'm eating a lot more than before

Had wanted to upload all the pics from the seoul garden outing but my hp cable is missing!
Next time jer lah nampak nyer.

Ok. Time to go catch the game for liverpool VS arsenal. Hahah..torres here i come.

2008-02-23T19:48:00.003+08:00

Been sometime since i post an entry here.

Nevermind the faded interest of blogging, its also toppled with sooo much stuffs to do nowadays. Seriously..dunno wht are those 'stuffs' but i'm kinda of pre-occupied these days.

Can't remember the last time i switch on the TV and realised why is the time sooo slow..Hmm...

Had couples of Hindi dvds to watch but didnt have the time yet.

And just when i tght i had sometime to spare on a sat evening like this, this stupid pc have to be corrupted with viruses. Damn slow!

Time to buy new one?
No i guess! I have to act wiser this time and not buy things which are not highly in need.
On an even more sadder note, i realised i had put on more weight rather that losing weight.
*sob sob* 5KG!

Arghhhh..if only gaining it, is as easy as losing it.

Blame in on those junk foods..late dinners emm 'supper'?
The aching on my knees are also acting up lately...i seriously need an antidote for this!!!
and i think i might just have it.

well..let's just see if it does work out. check out this corner soon. C ya.

2008-02-01T13:19:00.000+08:00

Oh well, its weekends soon again. Rather shagged and needs plenty of sleep.

Mum is still in the hospital and might be for the one or 2 more weeks.

But alhamdullilah, she's recovering and hope she's be able to recover soon though she might not healthy like before.

Putting aside the daily visits there, all i want is for her to get better.

This week is my weekends off. Thank God, this alternate saturdays is a bit tiring actually.

Kind of miss my shift schedule. [ *wink*]

Sooo, i thought i need a break myself. Watching a late night movie later.

Miss d Nachos!

Visiting mustafa centre also later for my monthly dose of Vcd's shopping. Heheh..

Ta!

2008-01-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

I was repeating the vcd over and over again listening and watching Shahid's Kapoor dance moves in Jab We Met.

Thumbs up for the movie. Worth every cent of my 10bucks.

For a moment i feel less stressful and lost in the dreamy world.

I cannot avoid feeling worried but yet trying to stay positive all the time for the sake of my mother. She have just done the second surgery in one week,she's down with fever and shivering too when we visited her earlier.

Insya-Allah she will get better as each day goes by and will be able to endure the side effects of chemotheraphy well.

Putting that aside, her recovery stage is as important as well.

I have not managed to sleep well. I feel less energertic than other days. Been having migrane on almost every day. Keep popping in the pain killers.

But that's a small price to pay if i'm able to see mak recover smoothly.

I'm so glad that there's just so many people around me that is absolutely giving full encouragement and support.

Thank you for that.

Have many pics to updates from new year celebrations to bestie's wedding but PC aint working smoothly!

aRGHHH

Weekends coming, means i can spend more time at the hospital with mak.

Time check 1am. Time to force myself to sleep!

2008-01-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

When the world says 'Give up'

Hope whispers 'Try it one more time'

2008-01-20T18:17:00.000+08:00

Slap me for having said that last year was the worst year of my life.

For, what is happening now is the worst thing any daughter is to go through.

To know the mother that you always fall back on might be leaving you sooner than u thought.

The news was unacceptable, devastating, sad, very sad and lastly not expected.

How, why? is all in my mind right now.

I just want the best for her, though it means only a few months, i wanna make sure it feels like years to me and her.

Insya-Allah.

For my mother who is battling colon cancer, i hope you will have all the strength and enough courage to go through all this.

Saddest part is we have yet to tell her and i feel like not telling her at all.

How am i suppose to do that?

2007-12-31T08:37:00.000+08:00

the previous entry was sad...

Anyway say Hello to 2008 and blow goodbye kisses to 2007

2007-12-29T20:58:00.000+08:00

Ushering into 2008 is rather unwelcoming for me.

A year have passed, but nothing much have change, resolutions not met.

Hopes flushes down, not much of a fantastic year for me actually.

And into the last week of the year, it's the worse ever week i should say.

I feel stressful for whatever the reason which i'm not sure of.

I did not get to go for at least one holiday this year.

I did not get pregnant

I did not lose weight

Why cant i just swipe out that credit card and book a holiday for 2?

Why cant a millions of sperm that swims in just couldnt make its way to meet the egg?

Why cant i lose weight and eat anything i like?

why why why

I think i'm losing it already.Hmmmmmmm

Great, my plans to celebrate new year's eve is to watch TV, cable's showing a back to back marathon of X Men.

I just want a quiet jump start for the brand new year, not much like the previous years.

And oh please, no resolutions.

2007-12-22T16:22:00.000+08:00

Oh how fabulous it is to have a weekend off and on top of that a rainy weekend. Very Rare indeed.

Oh well, i deserved it too.

Talking abt it, the supposed 'just chill' date with my lovely babe, Manisa

ended up in Orchard.

Ooh, tht was a bad choice,bad place and bad timing too!

Lotsa of peeps doing christmas shopping.

I hate queues! Its taking like forever.

Discount pon discount lah, tak kuasa nak q up.

So i was looking forward that we didnt wasted out trip to like to the end of the world and decided to have a Nasi Ayam Penyek at lucky plaza.

But that too, dissapointing. Standard drop habis.

Thankfully did have the company of one of the world's best buddy.

It was a low key kinda of outing so strictly no pics.

Hehe

Getting back to the weather, i feel sleepy already.

Khalid is already driving his Mr Sonata full time.

Now, anyone who wants to date me on a weekend?

I'm open.

But for now, i getting back to watch Tv.

Ooh..smallville is coming rite up at 6pm later.

Channel 5 here i come!

2007-12-20T22:49:00.000+08:00

Yes yes yes....its friday and weekend soon.

Can't wait for my date with Manisa later. Eating,gossiping,manicures!!

Can't wait to meet hubby's 'Mr Sonata'.

Can't wait to have that Mc Donalds breakfast after so long

Can't wait to spend 4 days of stress free day

Emmm...ok, can't wait!

2007-12-13T23:02:00.000+08:00

I did a free screening courtesy of my employer.

Hahah..i cannot believe what is written, ok, overweight i know but c'mon how can i avoid chocalates? pastries? iceeee-crrrEAMMM??

And see under 'Visual Test', right eye - Unable to see.

Am i goin pirate soon? Last time i checked, the power was way above 1000.

Ooh.. no i feel so old.

Anyway i cant wait for my swimming session tommorow..!

I need to drowned all my extremely stressful nerves in the pool.

2007-12-11T16:18:00.000+08:00

Ouuoh..the smell of rain makes me feel even lazier than few days ago.

Plumped it up with a very bad flu and physcotic asthma, it's definitely enough excuses to take it easy.

My legs are like jelly, seriously all i could do was to pick up the TV control and change channels like a thousands time since last night.

Khalid is on reservist the whole week, so i have the home to myself!

i thought i'll do a bit of warming up, so here i am, surfing through whatever unecessary websites, and carefully make sure i wont fall asleep again.

Fever has run down but so is my energy.

and yess..i have added a script to enter password for this blog.

If you are reading this then u are the lucky one!

So i guess thats about a week more before Hari Raya Aidiladha is here and so is Yushua's birthday, my not-so-little already, cousin. I cant buy toys for a 9 year old, can i?

5th year wedding anni is also coming. Oohh, almost 10yrs together, i've run out of ideas what to give. Just Dinner perhaps.

And i'm late. I'm late. i'm really late.....arghhhhh!!!! stresssssssss

2007-12-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling overly fat & lazy now.

to a degree which is exceeding normal

Yes.

That's Me.

Oreo is expressing it all for me.

2007-12-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

Just My Luck!!!

Arghhhh!!!

2007-11-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

As i'm slowly taking my time slurping down this Mc' donalds Berries & Cookies Mc Flurry which is by the way heavenly! ,

my other fingers were busy typing but at the same time stroking Oreo & Cookie who is taking turns to sit where the keyboard happens to be.

You wouldn't believe how tiring my body is, that if its worth anything in the world, i would trade anything for time.

Now definition of time in my dictionary means time to do shopping like i can jolly well afford anything i wanted, sleep theraphy, spending time with all the lovely angels in my life and lastly to hang my feets up and get a deserved spa experience.

But sadly speaking, its not that easy. But at least mine is not as hard as others if you know what i means [if u dont, forget it]

I need a picnic. U know, spreading out the a checked mat near the breazy beach.

Eat non stop, swim until my hair smells like fish.

But according to Mr Weather, its not a good idea though.

Had just called An-Casa hotel to book for my KL trip and its fully booked. Damn!

Now i have one week of leave in december, and all i can think of is KL but most hotel is already fully booked! Arghhhh

Got any idea where to go? Hmmm...

2007-11-24T21:27:00.000+08:00

Phewww...what a tiring week it has been for me.

I swear my feets are sore of walking and too much of standing.

Just managed to finished off all my errands.

What can i say, to start a week with a wedding to attend and at the same time lend a helping hand was already tiring enough. 2 days of annual leave settles to nothing.

But i did had a good time on thursday. It was D&D nite at Swissotel

Sounds familiar? yes, its the same place as last year's D&D.

Same emcee but nonetheless a happy and memorable event.

Even Kumar was there too,

parading with a hot red dress and bitching about everything under the sun.

The drag performance was so so actually..didn't really find it very interesting at all.

And presenting as usual, cam whoring is a must for this bunch of lovely people.

All set to go!

With Kak Ifa

Gliteering nite

Happliy ever after. ..emmm..i'm missing!

Cheekily posing

Party till u drop.

It was definitely a time to let all hair loose. De stress even though the next day was still a working day!

Will all those make up, dressing up efforts it, what a day it was!

And Next up is the CCAS - Contact Centre Awards i attended last night.

Dinner was held Ritz Carlton.

One word - First Class

Hotel was really what i called a 5* star.( Apologise for being a bit jakun k )

I gotta to say that to dine in one table with all those bosses was already giving me butterflies in the stomach but they were very nice and engaged in casual conversations.

Too bad, we got nominated but no winners for SCS this year.

There were many other call centres participants also mostly from banks and other sorts of industries but all come downs to one same thing.

All working in a contact centre.

Though food was a bit off, maybe just not for me, who's not really into those high class food.

But dessert was nice. ..chocolates and a bluberry cupcake..

Yummy!

There, my 3rd week of nov spent.

Dec coming soon which means 2 0 0 8 is soon here also.

Time really flies faster this year.

2007-11-19T08:38:00.000+08:00

Exhausted!

2007-11-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

Last weekend was another day of eating delicious unresistable food.

Nasi Minyak ur mother power lah shah! *Drooling*

Makan session was held at Misha's place. Nice lounge and ambience.

It was also to celebrate a collegue's birthday, Bernie.

They made her to pick up the candles using her mouth.

Hahah...

So syawal have just ended and left. Alhamdullilah, this year as cheerful as years before.

Now its time to start working and sorting out my diet. Been sick again and again! It's been sometime since i touch and sipped a coke.

My patience is running out.

I used up all of my extra supernatural power to refrain from that.

On a way much better note, the half day meetings at that so ever busy CBD area has ended after a month. I'm back to the humble desk again.

Thank god i do not need to squeeze in the MRT so early in the morning, rushing towards the bus as though i will die if i didnt manage to board it.

That ordeal is over.

Moving on, i have lotsa of things to get done.

One of it is to make time to plans for a holiday.

I have in mind a place where there's no shopping and disturbance.

Just me & Khalid.

Probably somewhere sandy but yet affordable. It's for our 5th anniversary next month.

Hubby himself seems a bit uptide past few weeks. Probably due to his new timetable at his workplace. And at the same time, taking his taxi license.

After he got his license, i can foresee him doing it part time which means on weekends,i'll be left alone at home. *Sigh*.

Can i have time with my husband and at the same time lotsa of $$$ if possible. Heheh...

But i have an extra hardworking husband and i'm not complaining.

2007-11-05T20:44:00.000+08:00

Though it's heartbreaking to see one of the my good friends leaving us, i'm glad she had the chance to explore better opportunities out there.

Most of us will definitely miss you! But keep in touch al'rite?!

So there was this buffet dinner at Seoul Garden last week.

Thank you gals for the splendid dinner and those 'uncensored' topics. Hehehe...It was almost 3hrs of chit chatting and eating at the same time.

Lucky we were not kick out. Hehehe...

Some pics taken by my 2 megapixel hp cam, not clear at all! But i just have to put the pics!

Ready to cook

Lovely collegue turn good friends, Jumi

Us taking pics.

Ice cream tops with lotsa of Nuts!

We definitely had our stomach stuffed to the max! But the laughter and fun we got was also unforgetable.

For the past few weeks it was all about eating, eating and eating.

I promised to updates with more pics of it!

And from all those gassy drinks, i'm struck with asthma attacks more frequently nowadays.

Grrrr....

But for now, that's all.

2007-10-22T20:36:00.000+08:00

Each time i refreshes the screen of this blog of mine, i was hoping i could do some updates soon but there just seems to be no time.

Weekends are busy doing visiting or when i'm not, watching football seems to be my new interest. Hahah..so much so complaining that Khalid watch too much of it. Now i'm hook, awww...Torres is so gd- looking.

Syawal is here and even though it's just the two of us again this year, it's as happy as the years before. Though i hope there's an addition little person joining us by next year. Insya-Allah.

As expected, the kebaya that i tailored was not suitable for me. Its now chucked in the corner of the wardrobe. Baju kurung still remains the favourite i guess!

I'm just too lazy to update pics here as you know how slow blogger can be.

Its monday today and i'm on leave.

How amazing i thought it would be as i had plans to linger around town today in search of new tops which i seriously need. But my eyes was so heavy and i felt nauseous.

[damn those gassy drink, i had too much of em].

I could see cookie sleeping with his saliva drooling and oreo spreading his very fat body across the bed. My eyes just shuts down back.

The appointment to the Nail salon had to be pushed much later.

Thank God, i managed to use all the energy i had to bring myself out before the afternoon is almost over.

2008 is coming soon. I have very serious resolutions to fulfil.

Its time. Its time.

To lose some/ALL of my very flabby fats.

Something happened and i wont let it happen again.

Seriously. Who wants to join me?

2007-10-16T16:19:00.000+08:00

I'm struggling to update this little space here.

Will return soon though.

Hopefully

2007-09-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

Even though i welcome weekends with wide open arms, a very lazy feeling tends to kicks on a late friday evening like this. Recovering from a bad cough adds it up.

All plans break loose.My feets aint too happy to walk around and do some shopping.

So i guess plans to buy stuffs and collect my kebayas(ceh kebaya tau. jgn main2)

are brought forward to next week i guess or maybe i can do those stuffs on weekdays now? : )

I'm so grateful that the schedule at work is adjusting to having one weekday off per week now. At this point i need weekdays. Yes....! A small consolation i guess.

My dearest aunt, Bik Mah! Now we can meet up on weekdays and continue with our monthly pay-day outings. Hahah...

At a different note

I thought i had fast for at least for 15days but not a heck of fats/KG have left me. THE weight remains as it is and sometimes a kilo or 2 more.

Ok, now where's my corset? I need those! But i sure feel lighter on the head though as i had chopped if off for the second time in a week.

Its not even touching the shoulder now. Well, nevermind, at least i can see a little neck.

Khalid was saying i look like Chen liping, hahah...Oooi. even she have lost weight!

Been doing some searching for the D&D outfit too. Is there any dress which wld not make me look pregnant? and not cost me more than a 2 DIGIT? still s e a r c h i n g.

Maybe i'm taking a break now, its Fall now in US now so my fav pastimes is here again.

New season for all dramas.

I so hoping Mc'Dreamy wont be breaking up with Meredith. Arghh...gimme all those new episodes. Tom welling is back, so is wentworth. Oooh...i love Internet.

2007-09-20T22:54:00.000+08:00

You have no idea how much i am sweating now, probably due to heavy dinner i had earlier.

It was suppose to be an Iftar gathering which turns to a group gathering but some cant make it so left with abt 10 of us. Iftar was at Mak's place at Changi Road.

Average. Food was quite nice . Western & seafood are in the menu.

Some pics...

Spreading the lurve..

The regular faces

My dinner!

My Dessert! Sundae....

The rest.

So chilling's time is over but weekends approaching faster than never!

Geylang. The only place i've been wanting to go this week.

A visit to the hairstylist is much awaited too!

So, yes please come back for more pics!

2007-09-16T20:56:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to myself!

26th and still growing....

2007-09-12T15:06:00.001+08:00

2007-09-09T16:03:00.000+08:00

full of emotions

life's just like that

2007-09-08T11:55:00.001+08:00

i've clicked on the 'new post' many times to find out later that i've nothing to talk about here.

my digi cam has long been abandoned...now where it is..i cant find it

many posts without pics. Its begining to make me feel bored.

Ramadhan is coming though. I have lotsa of stuffs to do and clean up a bit.

The tailor have called to collect my kebaya but i'm still hesitating as i seriously can cfrm that it wont fit me or rather felt it wont look nice. So i had made a decision to collect only after fasting for one or two weeks time! hahah...

its really madness. i feel warm and hot for the past few days. Thanks to the hot weather and stupid workstation. Some people are damn selfish ( or stupid?? ) . If u use a temparature of 24 to 26 degrees in a room, its the same as turning if off. Stupidasshole! freakin freakin stupid.

i swear i feel real sticky and uncomfortable whenever i leave for home. cam kerje kontrak lak. padahal duduk jer. arghh....so now i'm enjoying the full blast air-con in the comfort of place called home...taking my time to read my 200 unread emails, acessing to friendster and updating some stuffs here.

so have a nice weekend people!

P:S> i'm feeling lazy

2007-09-04T12:34:00.000+08:00

that dream left me with tears on my cheek.

punishment?

i'm starting to think it that way

2007-08-31T23:41:00.000+08:00

i guess the best deal i got for august is to be able to wake up only when the sun's up.

my night shift ordeal is soo over and i look forward to sept. Having seen the new roster, makes a little twinky feeling. Happy and smilling.

i cant remember the last time i step out to go shopping and watch movie.

yes..sept is here. means my not-actually-big day is here soon. Insya-Allah will be celebrating it for the 26th time. And the 9th time with Khalid. I'm not so keen to know what he have or will bought for me as i have seriously had too many celebrations with him. Our Birthdays, wedding anniversary, and our unofficial 'anniversary'.

But i'm hoping it will be wrapped up instead of me having to choose it over the shelves. Husband,it is so difficult to buy me something? hehehe...

most importantly i guess is his presence and assuming that it will stay like this forever.

Haahh..enough of this mushy2 thing.

Anyway, watching Ratatouille over the weekends. I have so much in mind what to do on sunday but thinking that we will be car-less, it kinda of set me aback. Arghh...our car..our car...gonna miss u.. it was such a drastic decision and i dont even know if its wise to buy another one.

But life without one is like incomplete.

Hopefully i will get use to it!

2007-08-26T17:41:00.000+08:00

You woudnt believe how much my appetite has been growing lately.

endless complains abt being fat but no actions is done.

that 1.5 litres tub cookies & cream ice-cream has been wiped out by the queen herself over 2days.

Just two days.

I keep munching endlessly.

And adding to the misery i'm the only one whom all the junks-tidbits will end up with, since hubby is not really a fan of it.

Just the other day i wondered why is that jeans tight. Hell! now i know why.

and even as i'm indulging in my double cheeseburger meal now, i'm still thinking what i should eat for dinner later.

Someone slap me can?

god save me. my knees are already showing signs of too much weight. something which i think will happen when i'm in my 40s. - Padan muka. Makan lagik banyak2

i'm just worried that 'kebaya' that i tailored for hari raya might jolly well dont fit me when i collect it next month. So much so for having a 'figure'.

Next life if there is lah. This one , i guess those fats are just too comfortable on me that it wont leave.

*check calendar*- ok, tommorow's monday. Afternoon shift again.

Give it to me please. i Need it. late nights. late morning.

PS: There's no bun in the oven

2007-08-22T16:28:00.001+08:00

The most annoying, irritating yet addictive bunch of people are back.

Wednesdays are not the same anymore.

Mc Dreamy & Mc Steamy are back.

2007-08-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

Truthfully, i have lotsa of things to do but i choose to chucked everything at a corner and just be lazy. I find it very heavy to switch on my PC at home and visits my fav web/blogs.

Friendster account has been adandoned for more than a week, something tht seldom happen.

Emails are not read and blah blah blah. Routine was work-home-eat-tv-sleep since mon.

Since Khalid change his job recently, dearest hubby is always at home by 6pm. He used to be home only arnd 8plus... So when i saw hubby logging out frm his account earlier , i quickly take some time and login to blogger and attempt to write something/rubbish here.

But i guess there's not much of updates though.

Ok its almost 10.30pm...gotta catch Prison break !

2007-08-11T20:14:00.000+08:00

Finally! My 6 agonizing days will soon be over in less than 3hrs. Menduga kesabaran betol ah. Doing 4pm to 12am shift for 6days was definitely not a choice but everyone has to make a living rite?

Alhamdullilah i did made it! I still have one more similiar set of schedule to go through soon and nasib after that tak tahu lah. Hopefully some management people wake up at the wrong side of bed and declare office hrs with immediate effect rather than dunno-when?? Si dekni ckp next mth si dektu ckp end of the year. Haii..pening kepala.

My asthma has been acting up lately too. Nose keep being attack by block nose. So i had to breath in through my mouth but bcoz of asthma, its not as smooth as non-asthmatics times.

Sigh, i just realised my ventolin pump is already finishing..n its less than a year old. I used to not use it frequently that until it expired, it is still at least three quarter full.

Must be addiction to coke and cold drinks. I just cant stay away from em.

After about 21yrs of being an asthmatic i admit it doesnt bother me or scared me anymore. I have my ways and methods to calm myself down when it gets really bad. One of it is brushing your teeth. Seriously it does help a lot!! Probably the scent of menthol? Hmm....

But now i dont have a choice! Have also tried to prevent Oreo & cookie to laze around on our bed but when u see their adorable eyes and cute face, i simply give in. I wish i could cuddle them up all day!

I did read that cats only causes or triggered an asthmatic patient if they are dirty or not cleaned up well. Coz of the dust which are stuck on their thick fur or etc. I have never have problems with them. I also read a celebrity's blog who actually have to give away her cats due to her baby's asthma. I bet she's feeling so sad.

I hope i never ever have to give them away. *cross finger*

Begining to perk up my mood. Few more weeks before fasting. I have not pay back yet. Insya-Allah next week or over weekends. 5Days! Tak banyak tapi menyeksa...badan malas..asyik nak makan jer.

I still owned one fave babe of mine an ice-cream date. Drooling .....already.

2007-08-10T23:56:00.001+08:00

My great source of comfort today. Missing my kitties too!!

2007-08-06T20:50:00.000+08:00

Hows ur day people? Mine is quite a breeze.

lovin it. ....

august is already here. september in less than 23 days. ...

fasting month in less than 38days. ah...i luv ramadhan.

I hope i can do some Reminiscing this year but Life is just quixotic sometimes.

Aint it? hmm...

Ok, i'm goin back to do my online shopping stuffs. I'm hook.

Am also thinking wht i shld ask for my burstday from my beloved this year. Heh

Seriously i'm officially goin to be in the late 20's category soon.

Anyone can recommended any Good anti-wrinkle cream??

2007-08-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

I must say when i started my own blog, it was more for killing time at work.

That was exactly about a year ago. Routines like finding the perfect blosgkin, trying to phunk it up. Of coz writing was never my fav pastimes not even virtually.

Those compositions in school, i was always struggling.

But then, those compositions asked u to cook up a story rite ? so its not the same when u write about the fact. Stories which are true and not made up.

So i'm just going with the flow. I update when i have something to express or share.

I realised that i am struggling to even make sure that this blog aint dead. So here i am updating at 12.40am on a monday morning.

Most of the time felt swayed by some other bloggers who simply used the perfect words in their post, very descriptive & absolutely interesting sentences layed out. Making the feeling real and make me wanna share their happiness or misery personally. Aah...how i admired them.

From my [previous post], i said i was drained... my god. Little did i expect quite a no of concerns thrown at me. I felt overwhelmed. But truthfully lovely people out there, i am fine. There's nothing serious though.

I admit. it was such a trivial matter but i just wrongly interpreted it i guess.

Oopss...i certainly,totally do not want to act emotional here.

So i'll just stop here.

Try not to experience the monday blues !

2007-08-01T11:10:00.000+08:00

Drained . . . . .

Shall i or Shall i not?

2007-07-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

Oh well..i'm back but does not mean i'm less lazier than before.

Rainy and cold days are rubbing into it too. I cant help to part with my big fluffy pillows..i miss 'em

Thk god i'm on afternoon shift this week so at least i dont have to bargain with myself on my waking up time. U know like ...bargaining and whispering to urself each time u can't wake up in the morning and keep imagining that 5 more mins in the bed will not matter.

Queen Q is definitely not a morning person. I still cant accept that Khalid can even wake up as early at 7am on weekends even though its his OFF day! It bothers me a lot!

Weekends off this week! But have tonnes of re-arrangment to do at home. New additional wardrobe is coming in tommorow, just wht i needed most now. My clothes are all over the place..such a disaster. I hope the pole- hanger wont go bust again .

So much clothes & the weight is too much i guess

(all my clothes big mah--so tend to be heavier than d wght of a normal size top) i guess???

I'm still searching for a new sofa coz the current one is so worn-out. I dont want my visitors to end up realising they r on the floor after sitting on the sofa. Insya-Allah before Hari raya lah...

Ikea's having sale, mum asked a week ago if i wanted to go, still under consideration though.

So many plans in mind and i wanna make sure the important one get done first.

I still cant make time to trim my hair again, seems its growing longer & faster than it used to.

The weather is definitely keeping everyone at home! Especially me!

2007-07-21T20:20:00.000+08:00

Oh people, my Lazy days are just here.

see you when i see you.

2007-07-14T23:39:00.000+08:00

2007-07-08T12:55:00.000+08:00

The reason i am stress-free when i'm at home. Not just stress-reliever but also their duties is to make sure the house is free from unwanted presence.

No more strange sounds or feeling scared. Oreo & Cookie is in DA house.

Nothing much to blog about coz i decided to spent time at home. So i'll post some of the bunch of pics of my 2 little brats who simply like to sleep.

Cookie at the door. He's always the morning-shift guard cuz Oreo sleeps in the day.

Oreo's shift. In the Bicyle park right in front of our doorstep. Oh yeah..thts the furthest we let him be.

Seeking comfortable sleeping area.

Favourite hide-out in the living area.

If no one's looking. He will sleep here on the sofa.

Too bad. There's no pics of Cookie sleeping. He sleeps as though he is goona fly like a superman, hands & legs stretch out completely. One problem...he cant stay still when taking pics. Thus no pics of him sleeping.

Hahah..enjoy ur weekends!

2007-07-03T12:51:00.000+08:00

Oh its been a while since i did some updates here. Dont worry the ghost didn't eat me up!

I'm very much here except that my health is not at the best yet.

Ever since fever overtook me since wed i was struggling to keep the temperature down.

KL plans has to be cancel which i was quite reluctant at first but realised i did the right thing or otherwise i'll just be nursing myself in the hotel room instead of shopping. Insya- Allah another time perhaps.

Just visited the clinic for the second time today and hope i'll be able to get back to work by tommorow.

July is here without me realising.

I deeply hope that i wont leave 2007 for 2008 without turning my only long-time dream turned to reality.

Life's just so boring without that.

2007-06-26T21:02:00.000+08:00

Something spooky and weird happened last night. If u r living in the east area, you might know that it was raining heavily last night. Unless ur so in the dreamland that u didnt realise! hahah...

Khalid pick me up at 12am from work. After reaching home like 20mins later, we settled down on the bed arnd 1++am. As per normal, we were doin our routine chit chatting before boozing off. But but but...just when we were settling down, we heard a noise, apparently something which sounds like the laundry pole have fallen down from the kitchen.He checked it out but there was nothing at the kitchen, just mins after that we heard something like someone is trying to open the bedroom door! The door knob was like twisting frm right to left and the door was shaking softly.

At first i thought it was cookie who simply like to run like a road runner and end up banging on the door*that silly cat*. So i woke up and check both of them at the next room, then saw them resting on their bed. So i close the door and proceeded back to sleep. Within seconds it happen again!! Oh god! I was already suspecting something ...i look at Hubby'd face but he was quick to brush it off saying it might the wind. But i was like... where got wind in the hall??

Adding on, everytime we switch on the table lamp, it will stop but once off...tht 'someone' will again try to open the door. FYI, the door is not locked.

I was already reciting whtever ayat i can rmbr in my heart. Lucky me, i have a husband with lotsa of guts. He actually have the courage to open the door several times and stare at each corner even though in the end there was nothing. If me..nevermind lah, kirim salam sua. Sembunyi bawah selimut!

I actually switch places so that i'll sleep next to the window rather than the door! so scary!!

But alhamdulillah nothing happen for the rest of the night.

When Hubby left for work after subuh, i quickly grab my bodyguards and let them sleep around me on the bed. I felt guarded and safe before i woke up at 10am.

Told Ms RED Katherine once i reach work but she too brushed it off as 'Probably the wind lah..cfrm the wind one...' Yes i 100% hope it is the wind even though it doesnt make sense to me.

Oh shit, now my bladder is super full tank and i dont even dare to visit the toilet here at work. The toilet here..arghh thts another story. SCSrians prob will know! Here its the hand dryer prob...nevermind. I'll stop here before i scare anymore people out there.

P:S>Nothing like this has happened before in the house. I hope it wont again.

Me Big size only but semangat kecik mcm semut!

Jhoom Barabar Jhoom - Kiss of Love

2007-06-25T23:16:00.001+08:00

I love this song! Kiss of love ..kiss of love...stay away frm the kiss of love...

2007-06-23T19:23:00.000+08:00

On thursday, there was a farewell dinner at Sakura Restaurant at Downtown East.

Treat was on the man who is leaving, Ping chuen aka Ah CHuen..hahah...

So after knocking off from the Helldesk (shah,ur so rite.Helldesk it is!) Yati nompang me & Misha there. Though some of my fav peeps were missing on that day , i still thought it was a nice dinner. But the menu was not totally my fav i would say as there was too much of seafood, sushi stuffs. Nevertheless, the oreo ice -cream cakes(take note,its cakes & not cake..hehehe), and the two cups of ice-cream that i had sum up the night.

Below are some random pics that i took on the dinner day at Sakura.

Sakura International Buffet At Pasir Ris .

Posing with Misha while waiting for the rest.

*Sorry for the blurness*

Ngah makan pon nak aksyen posing!
Sweet Sheens who never forgets to smile evry morning!
and 'the oh so fat me'

There was lotsa of group pics taken but somehow realised i didnt take any with my own cam.

And thanks to tht, i was hit with diarrohea the next day. Probably too much of dairy stuffs taken the previous night i guess?? So MC day it is..was slogging my ass off in the toliet till afternoon. I was already feeling nausea and soooo hungry.

So i crossed my finger and headed to Bik Mah's place and Nyayi cook Lontong. Super sedap!

I could not resist and tolerate to cancel plans to meet up with Bik Mah to shop for this Raya's materials. So we headed to Arab St . I had purple color in mind and i got it! Hehehe.. In fact i bought 3 ! Last year's was the record. I only did one pair,in the end i had nothing to wear for weddings ! So Insya-Allah this year will be with celebrated with more choices of colors!

Saturday was another movie day, saw Jhoom Barabar Jhoom after much of hesitation from the husband who's not sure if we shld watch a $10 per person movie. Hit GV TAMP at 9pm at last!

Preity Zinta is absolutey forever gorgeous.For a moment i missed my long wavy hair when i saw her very sexy curls in the movie. Movie was great but just a lil bit slow in the first half.

I was praying hard that i didnt have to visit the toilet during the 139 mins of the movie. I had to missed my fav nachos too cuz cheese will make it worse.

And so thank god i managed. Haha

Unbelievably,i could make it to work today after slogging myself for days due to diarrohea
I still have bits of pain running through my stomach and very shitty nausea feeling.

I still have to go through this helldesk for another week before weekends will be here again.

Is planing to hit KL this sat but Khalid's leave is pending. Otherwise its goona be a 2day1nite or have to be postpone again.

Hope we make it! I seriously need a breather. KL pon KL lah..

2007-06-17T15:54:00.000+08:00

Tommorow's Monday will be the second Mon's off day i'm getting this month. Oh i'm so liking Mon than i ever before. Working on sundays like this is somewhat nothing since there's no monday blues for me.

The place's peaceful, sitting in the dark corner without the lights on, wht i can hear is the echoing of these two collegues chit chatting behind me. Time to catch up on couples of VCDs that i've bought. I'm so liking it. Hahah...*ops* *Lip sealed* I better say nothing.

Fantastic's 4 Rise of the Silver surfer was not Fantastic but good. Wht didnt downed with me was why Jessica Alba had to dye her hair blonde and use those blue lens. She still look pretty but i'm sure she's better off with it. 3/5 lah for this time. Not pack with lots of action like Spidey 3 but still not as confusing as POTC 3.

I guess in the next few coming entries i'll just keep yakking about movies.

Am trying to make time to watch Jhoom Barabar Jhoom. The soundtrack has already been blasting in the car for past few days. and and...Transformer! It got me hook after watching the trailer everywhere. I was not really a fan of those Transformer toys but the movie is on!

Too bad the full video for JBJ is still not avail yet. Bobby Deol has never been sexier !

Let's Jhoom!

2007-06-14T18:22:00.000+08:00

Been wanting to update this space just so to update pics with the new hair but i had some other stuffs to be taken of.

The issue was bugging me since mon. It bothers me a lot cuz its potraying as though i have betrayed someone.

And to think that this lately i've felt there was some bonding happening between us after so long so.

But thks to MSN i managed to clear things up and explained. It was such a relieved. *wink*

To this person u know who u are. Please promise to take care of urself ok! Please do not put me on a spot like this again.

So i cut off the oh-so long hair few days back. Positive feedbacks i've received so far.

Nice ? Not?

Tommorow's friday. Saturday's the movie day at Vivo. Catchin Fantastic Four 2.
I hope i wont be lazy to get the manicure i badly need. But my energy level is shaky.The heat is really unbearable or it is just PMS?
Ok. Thats all bloggers. Gd nite.

Ps: I badly need a new hp. Any recommendation?

2007-06-11T15:02:00.000+08:00

Such a very sunny Monday. The heat's clearly driving me crazy.

I made plans for a pedicure later but guess i just have to cancel it. I rather be under the roof than to fight the heat just to get my feets and fingers soak and massaged.

Arghh...can i buy a genie? With a click i'll reach the desired place instantly. Well. dream on.

I was cleaning and re-aranging the wardrobe earlier. Such a long time since i did one..sadly there was a lot of nice looking Tees that has to be disposed. I was a size 16 and now i'm btwn 18-20. Sigh... Size 16 no more.

Fun's over too. Officially no jeans are allowed on the floor at work now, all formal wear only. I hope this will be a temporary rule, perhaps one day it will be back to wht it use to be.

Oohh..i tink i just heard a thunder while finishing this up, it is goin to rain? I hope so..i'm in need of cold strong wind blowing towards me. Maybe i still can make it to have my ugly toes and nails re-shape.

Ah yes...i cut my hair short. Gone are the long wavy dry hair. Its short & much more smoother now. I cant feel my hair touching my shoulders. But i'm sure the curls will be back once the hair's longer.

Guess its for the better. Will upload some pics though one of these days for those of u who dont get to see my daily.

But now, i just remebered i have this Ben & Jerry Choc chips ice cream stuck in the fridge.... now's the time to grab it.

2007-06-09T09:30:00.000+08:00

I had a little of time and i saw/read how other bloggers were saying about this website myheritage.com.

So I decided to make one of my own.

See My matching below.

Emmm..no words to say.

My.heritage i lurve u for matching me with these celebs even though i dont think i'm ever like them.

Enjoy!

2007-06-06T17:07:00.000+08:00

Yeay! New skin! Since i saw this skin, i kinda of like so much but i thought it needed some personal touch from me hence i pasted my pics all over it

(which i had a hard time finding the nice one coz almost all i look FAT)

Haha..photoshop helps a lot!

Wht do u tink? Needs a lot more adjustment but my head is already cracking to use the photoshop elements. So i guess i'll just have to settle for this and do others another day.

Its my off day today and its almost over soon. But on the happier note, weekends is here soon.

Spent it wisely ok!

2007-06-02T00:41:00.000+08:00

The day planned was already here. My partners in crime have been talking almost everyday about this. Can anyone ever resist and not act on this very sinful activity?

Fondue at Haagen Daz! Only $39.90
The Sinful Activity

When i first fall in love with it via Awin's blog, within seconds i had already managed to get my partners in crime! Jumi, Yati! Thank You for commiting the crime with me! hahah...

Posing while waiting.

Melting blisfully in my mouth.

The melting process in ur mouth just create a ticklish sensational feeling instantly.
I tink i finished most of it. Sorry babes! Hehe..

Its so nice that i knew that that wont be the last time. Returning very soon but this time will be armed with self- mashmallow plus cookies!

Heavenly!

2007-05-31T18:11:00.000+08:00

My left ear has turned slightly deaf probably courtesy of a bunch of laughters i had(willingly!) last night. There was a bbq held at Savannah's condo at Simei. Such a lovely place to stay! But in this lifetime i can just dream about it. Hahaha.. It was BBQ held by peeps from work. The last time i had one was way back till i cant remember when. Difference is this time there was no sea breeze surrounding me.

Nevertheless, the place was absolutely stupendous, there's gym,a BIG pool,elephants arounds and its own bowling place too. Its a theme park condo and it certainly live up to it. Nice place. Probably i'm just being Jakun, maybe all condos have that. Hehe..

The Bowling alley

Makaning time

Where it all begins....Menu please??

Yati , Me and adorable Shiqa at the waterfall.

Although there so many snaps taken, unfortunately i didnt managed to snap most of it. I was either busy eating, talking or simply enjoying the nite.

Left at around 10plus before Khalid pick me up to go to Mustafa C. That place forever lah crowded but i like though. I grabbed all the newly released Vcds and soundtrack before setting off home. Prata was the menu closure of the day. Still want to complain fat!

But at the end of the day,I simply had the answer to imsonia. :)

2007-05-25T02:02:00.000+08:00

Time Check > 3.20 am.

My eyes are wide open. Dugging in the nutella. Something's wrong with me! Why am i not in Lala land now!

How do i deal with this. Its been ages since this happened.

Errr...Can someone sing me a lullaby probably?

2007-05-23T19:00:00.000+08:00

Such a nice evening. I tink i'm begining to like working late shift. Hee hee..

If only hubby working hrs is shift too, i'll definitelty consider doing this permanently. Lately i i'm hit with imsonia. On normal days when i hit the sack i'm gone. But not now, sleep is not fun anymore. Coz i'm forcing it. I took the cough syrup but it doesnt work and normally it does.

I tried to pass the time by watching all those cables channels and surf the net but because its so hot even though with the fan switched to full blast. Damn, why did i have to buy a house with the main air-con compressor install in the kitchen?? Yes. It is in the kitchen, you read it right. I'm not sure why HDB do not allow the design n build flats to have the compressor install outside like many other flats does.

When i peep at the oreo and cookie, they r already blissfully asleep on their bed, probably enjoying the air-con. Haha..they r soo getting use in sleeping in an air-con room that when its not turn on they wld refuse to voluntarily go in the room when its nite time or rather keep meowing at night probably struggling with the heat. So based on the last month's bill, we tght it doesnt make any diff if u open one or two air-con at night. Bill still comes to $170++ a month. So let them enjoy life every nite as it is. Have air-con room, have own bed, can sleep all day. I like to switch places with them any day.

Getting back to the imsonia, i seriously hope it will be cured before the weekends over. Itz back to normal working hrs next week. And lotsa of plans too! More holidays please!! Cant wait, cant wait...mmm m droolling already when talking about this...y'all check out soon wht i am drooling about ok!

N tonite its the finals to the Champion League! Hubby has definitely make me hook on watching those liverpool's game. ..Why it is tht i'm so always easily hook to his hobbies and not vise versa.

Have 2 more days before its my weekends off..gotta book the POTC 3! F4's second sequel is opening soon too. Its goona be a great weeks ahead i guess.

And i'm hook on online shopping. Being this fleshy is a BIG price to pay. Clothes are much more expensive and its hard to find trendy clothes off the shelves. So had no choice to turn to online shopping. I Nurqadariah definitely have enough of trying to lose weight! So i just have to work hard to look best with wht i am and have now. Bombshells out there! Check out the links on the left! They r great but shipping cost abt US19.99 most of the time. Can email me if u wanna share with me!

2007-05-21T18:29:00.000+08:00

Just dropping by.

How fast time passes by. May is soon over. I thought come June i'll made a li'l few resolutions or rather a must-to-do task. I had my blue borders notebook with me and have been jotting down a few things that needed to be done or settle before dec hit us again.

I have started to prepare wht are to be done before fasting month is here yet again. I simply like to plan all these festives preparations in advance but always end up doin it at the last min. Kata semangat kan... hehehe..Insya- Allah kalau panjang umur.

Back to reality i have 5 more hrs to knock off frm work. Clock is definitely ticking off slowly. Its only 7pm! But wht the heck,i plan to take it easy this time.

I'm not a happy employee but a contented one. I'm also starving! Food anyone?? Hah!

2007-05-19T17:36:00.001+08:00

2007-05-15T09:02:00.000+08:00

It was raining heavily. The alarm went at 7.08am. The goal - to reach work by 8am.

Well unless a miracle happens then i'm goona be late again. Although i was very guilty that i was taking my sweet time to get ready when i'm already late, lazyness,*evil* overcomes me all the time. Lame excuses, really lame.

Its to the second day of the week but i'm already dying and hoping that tommorow is friday. I sometimes ponder if its time to change hand in that letter and start a new phrase again. If you know me well, u know what i mean. Sshh..dont tell anyone ok. At the slightest chance, a potential recruiter might be reading this.

Or shld i just rest my big butt at home for the next few months. The last time i did that i can't even remebered which day is what day. I took a peep at my bank balance and the plan totally backfired.

I'm toying with the idea of taking a break. Not those typical weekend break but a real break. Can anyone tell me how to be a Deal or No deal contestant. $250k? I'll b happy enough to settle for $25k. Its so singaporean..lots of singlish in it. Damn..i'll just have to settle playing it online.

Try it ok..at least u get to feel rich virtually.

Click Here

2007-05-13T23:02:00.000+08:00

My mother is the place that i call home.

When i'm down i'll imagine that i'll rest my head and close my eyes on her.

There's no one else who grants the same soft peace, Happiness, contentment,

and sweet release.

Erasing my night time tears with lullabies.

Restoring the bright sun that makes me just bloom.

Mak, i love you.

Happy Mother's day.

2007-05-11T10:05:00.001+08:00

Seems like i'm hook on flapping my hands and feets now. Its actually call swimming but i wouldnt dare to use it cuz i dont tink i could swim.

Just flapping my hands and legs around. But i enjoy every bits of it just like any other kid is. Nevermind the after side effects i had.

And you have to go with fabulously fun people otherwise its a waste of time i guess :)

TGIF. Thank God its Friday again.No plans yet for the weekends but i thought a trip to JB would nice. Have been talking about going there but i still havent. Maybe i shld try to make it this time. No more excuses.

I hope this energertic attitude will stick and not leave soon.

2007-05-06T11:54:00.000+08:00

Oh No.

Migraine is here again after so long.. but I refused, refused and refused to sleep and take a rest. I do not want my weekend to be wasted sleeping and trying to recover.

So i keep still and sat infront of the monitor to catch up on some videos online.

I force Khalid to pour almost half of the Axe-oil on my head to let me feel better. After a few mins it was much better. Pssst even though mom's hand will be better, i was glad that i didnt have to use my own hand to massage my own soon-to-burst-head.

Funny thing my hair was changing into sthing like the hantu from JPB( Jgn pandang belakang) that i watch earlier in the day at GV. And about that i tght the movie was not scary, i for definitely cld sleep alone at night and not remember abt it. Not like when after watching the ring several years ago when i kept thinking that the long-haired ghost will pop out from the TV! Hah hah

My 2 piece advise just wait for the VCD to come out .

Ok today is Sunday. Sunday is happy day. Its windy. I'm sitting just next to the window which is widely open.

Cookie is poppin out his head to enjoy the breeze too.

I got to enjoy the day. Hope u will too.

2007-05-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

I had spent the evening with someone that i have not met for like the longest time ever.Thankfully we mostly catch up virtually almost every day! At last there was time to have dinner and shop a li'l together. Therez always excuses not able to meet but there wasnt this time.

I'm happy that we did it. Hidayah!! Please meet up again soon ok..? Next time maybe the whole day can jalan2 and do wht both of us simply lurveee...shopping! Plsss dont wait another 2 or 3 years. Hah hah

Anyway we had dinner at Swensen PP. For so long i have been craving for the fish & chips there(no, i'm not pregnant,in case u guess i m). At last i managed to have that. Thank you again babe for accompanying me there. :)

Had wanted to post the pics here but i have not asked for her permission so better not lah.

And i am excited that i had managed to get a new 2 pc swimming suit. Not Bikini but.something like burkini version. Long pants & Long sleeves top. At only $50! So cheap2...

Swimming pool here i comeeee.... can i still swim? i dont care..i just need to dump myself in the pool after so long.

2007-05-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

Art of seduction? U better take a minute to do this...I did! Results is shown below.

So interesting.

Got this very much interesting link from SriChantique's blog

I'm now starting to read the results to understand myself. Hee.

Wht? Queen's seduction style - The Escape Artist ?

2007-05-01T19:12:00.000+08:00

2007 came and now its already in May! So fast rite? Almost to the second half of the year people. And theres 2 PH this mth....looking forward to the end of the mth again??

I, absolutely did enjoyed myself these few days. Weekends was spent by de-stressing myself. And what else is 100% stress free? the big S ! Therez so much sales goin out there. I admit i was quite carried away though...he he

On monday, friends introduce me to the very the pedas nasi Ayam penyek at Lucky Plaza. I'm not hooked but i am looking forward to the next trip there.

( Ladies, we shld really do this more often, wht say u? )

And i was looking forward to catch Spidey 3. I had this book like 2 weeks ago! Wanted to be among the first to see..full house at Plaza Sing. Thumbs up! Everyone reading this much watch.

Looking forward to POTC 3 now.

Well, fun time is soon over. But hey weekend is 3 more days away.

2007-04-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

Unlike to the previous entry, i'm feeling much better(hehe..i refuse to use this word in case i feel the aching again but i am really feeling better! ). Many thanks to the pressure from the massage. Pity makcik urut tu..entah2 balik tangan dia yg sakit, side effect from uruting my very the Ummmphok body. It was a solid 160mins of massage theraphy! Begging in my heart that everything will turn better..hehe. Pray & hope for me ok..

i was blog hopping earlier in this hour(guess where i m) and came upon a 11yr old blog. She was actuali bloggin abt wht her ambition was. I tght it was cute n so incredibly innocent. It brought me back memories of wht i wanted to me. No no..call centre is definitely not in the LIST! But life a a box of chocolate, u never know wht u gonna get. Hah ...Forrest Gump!

See, like most other girls being an air-stewardess was my ambition for sometime. U know the perception tht if u r one, u sure is a pretty slim and well-grommed lady. Heehe.. the perks of travelling overseas for freee was superb! But after leaving sch and growing fatter the ambition just left on its own.

Being a prison warden was also in the list, actually many frens suggested that. LOL. Prob of my size..but semangat kecik dorang tak tahu. Anything i run first...hahaha.

Along the way of coz i did thgt of some other 'profession'. The most incredibly never-goin-to achieve is to be an Astranout! Haha..i dun know why but i kinda of get fascinated by the stars the moon and the outer world for a while.( dun puke or laugh ok..i never told anyone this b4). I did read up some books during that time on being in outerspace but it was just a awful dream of mine. Unless i become a billionaire in future which prob allow me to buy a ticket there!

There goes me chances of me flying there and here...

*knock on the head*

2007-04-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

I' m feeling extremely shagged when i step out to werk earlier in the day. My hands are aching again. My head was pounding.. but thanks to a new friend that i hv made virtually, after being advise that i shld try to recite ayat kursi and mintak from Him insya-Allah i'll be fine. And thank god...i was feeling much better and able to type this entry. I cldnt even lift the last finger earlier and all my fingertips were numb.

Damn those pain killers...doesnt work on me anymore.

Ok gotta go..i have an early 9am massage session with my Wak Surkaseh at mum's place. I lurve that lady..except that she's too busy to accept any appointment. At last i managed to!

2007-04-16T00:19:00.000+08:00

The weather was intensely hot on sunday, depriving me of any intention of being outdoor. Except to mak's place which was less than an hour to have lunch, the rest of the day was spent blissfully in study room with full blast air-con! Was it just me or really it is that Hot.

I tght i was goona be stuck by migraine when i felt slightly giddy but thank god it went off after i rub some axe-oil. Axe oil saved my day.

Was surfing through the net for a short holiday but was let down.Most are fully book. KL again? The husband & me still thinking . End up just watching yahoo. videos instead. Haha...tried to sleep though but unable to. I tink i can only fall asleep at work. Lol.

N i saw Qabil Khusry Qabil Igam vcd. Like i said in my previous entry, Hans Isaac was my Mc'Dreamy. The rest of the actor Actress was incredible too. Hmm...so long since i saw a good Malay movie. So funny in the hour but end up as a touching plot.

Till next entry, see ya.

Jangan Pandang Belakang Trailer

2007-04-13T22:00:00.001+08:00

The triller of much talk movie in M'sia. They even had warnings that pregnant woman or young child is not suitable to watch it. Hmm..dont think it will here soon. Probably will drop by and watch via JB.

It been a while since i saw sthing really scary since The Ring 1.

2007-04-07T22:22:00.001+08:00

I stumbled upon this & i really felt tht everyone has to read this. So here i am trying to spread it around.

Being perfect is just too much. I'm plain lazy. IF i cld be half as good as perfect i am more than happy.

Beza tanggungjawab seorang Lelaki & Wanita
LELAKI:Lelaki bujang kena tanggung dosa sendiri apabila sudah baligh manakala dosa gadis bujang ditanggung oleh bapanya.Lelaki berkahwin kena tanggung dosa sendiri, dosa isteri, dosa anak perempuan yg belum berkahwin & dosa anak lelaki yg belum baligh.

Hukum menjelaskan anak lelaki kena bertanggung jawab ke atas ibunya & sekiranya dia tidak menjalankan tanggung jawabnya maka dosa baginya terutama anak lelaki yg tua, manakala perempuan tidak, perempuan hanya perlu taat kpd suaminya. Isteri berbuat baik pahala dpt kpd nya kalau buat tak baik dosanya ditanggung oleh suaminya.

Suami kena bagi nafkah pada isteri, ini wajib tapi isteri tidak.Walaupun begitu isteri boleh membantu.
Haram bagi suami bertanya pendapatan.Isteri lebih2 lagi menggunakan pendapatan isteri tanpa izin ini. Banyak lagi lelaki lebih2 lagi yg bergelar suami perlu tanggung Kalau nak dibayangkan beratnya dosa2 yg ditanggungnya seperti gunung dgn semut. Itu sebabnya mengikut kajian nyawa org perempuan lebih panjang drpd lelaki.

WANITA : Auratnya lebih susah dijaga berbanding lelaki. Perlu meminta izin dari suaminya apabila mahu keluar rumah tetapi tidak sebaliknya. Saksinya kurang berbanding lelaki. Menerima pusaka kurang dari lelaki. Perlu menghadapi kesusahan mengandung & melahirkan anak. Wajib taat kpd suaminya tetapi suami tak perlu taat pada isterinya.

Pernahkah kita lihat sebaliknya??Benda yg mahal harganya akan dijaga & dibelai serta disimpan di tempat yg tersorok & selamat. Sudah pasti intan permata tidak akan dibiar bersepah2 bukan? Itulah bandingannya dgn seorg wanita. Wanita perlu taat kpd suami tetapi lelaki wajib taat kepada ibunya 3 kali lebih utama dari bapanya. Bukankah ibu adalah seorg wanita?

Wanita menerima pusaka kurang dari lelaki tetapi harta itu menjadi milik peribadinya & tidak perlu diserahkan kpd suaminya, manakala lelaki menerima pusaka perlu menggunakan hartanya utk menyara isteri & anak2.

Wanita perlu bersusah payah mengandung & melahirkan anak, tetapi setiap saat dia didoakan oleh segala haiwan, malaikat & seluruh makhluk ALLAH di muka bumi ini, dan matinya jika kerana melahirkan adalah syahid kecil.Manakala dosanya diampun ALLAH (dosa kecil).

Di akhirat kelak, seorg lelaki akan dipertanggungjawabkan terhadap 4 wanita ini: isterinya, ibunya, anak perempuannya & saudara perempuannya. Manakala seorg wanita pula, tanggungjawab terhadapnya ditanggung oleh 4 org lelaki ini: suaminya, ayahnya, anak lelakinya & saudara lelakinya. Seorg wanita boleh memasuki pintu Syurga melalui mana2 pintu Syurga yg disukainya cukup dgn 4 syarat sahaja: sembahyang 5 waktu, puasa di bulan Ramadhan, taat suaminya & menjaga kehormatannya.

So how ladies? Anyone thinking of making any changes.

2007-04-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

After a dreadful week of doing late shift,sunday was spent attending my ex-schmate Manisa's wedding.

Beautiful bride, pack with invitees and nice deco.

I like so much to attend weddings but only if i know the bride personally. Cuz prior to the wedding, therz definitely plenty of girly talk on wht to do,wht to wear and this that.

So to attend the actual wedding after that is simply an everlasting happy moments.

And at times u get to meet all those special people u just had no time to meet or just cant find the time!

So after almost bursting into tears trying to find a b.kurung to fit in( which i still cant fit). Thank God! i made it.

Below are some pics that i took...

Almost 14yrs have passed,their great individual personality have not changed a bit! They were making jokes as though we're still in sch.Most r already mothers..some r already into the 3rd child! And me nt even one!?? So sad..to think that i was among the first to get married. Lawan tauke sei!

And i have a feeling the bride will also soon join in!

Bride & Groom. Aziz & Manisa

Me & Qamarina, flowergirl! Double Q's!

Zareema,Haslinda,Me,Aisah & Maggi(azila).

Of cuz their juniors.

Now how many weddings am i looking forward soon? Many! I love weddings!

2007-03-28T00:55:00.000+08:00

Double 88

Why be sad?

1 I'm doing 5pm-12AM shift this week.
2 Cant watch TV( bck to reason 1)
3 Had a hard time listening to my mum's daily complains abt my siblings. Gosh! i tght i gave her a Hard time those days.
4Had not realised how much i have neglected some things
5My bed sucks. Soft as a mashmallow. Time to get new one.
6 My hair is still not cut and unrevived!
7 Have been having slight on and off giddiness. Prob too much sleep!
8 Looking at my shoe rack, time to dump all

Why be happy?
1 My health is back. Alhamdullilah
2 I have lose 4kg during the sickening period. Lol but i cant seem to find frm which part.
3 Goin to one of my longest ever friend Manisa'a wedding this weekend. Cant wait to mit the rest too. Miss em all. Hope they can make it.
4 HAd realised how much i love oreo and cookie . They were always there, whenever wherever.
5 Trip to Genting is 80% confirmed. At last not KL!
6 Hp contract ending soon. New hp i'm hoping for. Pink Moto bye bye!
7 Pay day soon!
8 Granted more sleep this week as shorter working hrs

Live life to the fullest.
Remember!

2007-03-26T18:44:00.000+08:00

Ok..so i thought i needed a new skin. Since i have to report to work at 5pm today, there was time. Hence this new outlook. But not before struggling to use the adode photoshop! Thks Naz for giving me some guidelines.

I kinda of like it but i found the pics of me to be a bit dull or have been put up before. Shld pose for more hapy happy pictures i guess!

2007-03-19T17:53:00.000+08:00

M A R C H. Indeed a very dreadful and sickening month. I tink i'm sick of blogging about being sick. My arms r killing me..aching all over. Medical plasters r all over it..hah hah..dun talk abt the 'free wax' tht i'll have when i try removing it. U know how hairy i can be ..heheh.

I'm feeling like a frickin sick lady now. A hair cut is very much needed.But the hair studio seems miles away.I wanna be healthy again! But my aching veins says otherwise. It is not leaving me soon i guess. All those farXXX sickness are thrown in my way. No doctors..clinic pleaseee! (Bluekkkk!)

Seriously!

2007-03-12T16:47:00.000+08:00

A typical thing that u can expect on mondays had just happened to me. Monday blues. Feeling sick. U just feel like shutting ur eyes and hope morning wld not arrived in a spilt second.

Again i am struck with the stomach flu bug. Damn..how many MCs hv i accumulate. Definitely not healthy! I have downed 3 full bottles of cough mixture in a matter of about 2weeks but my cough wont leave me instead my stomach was greeted with pain and endless trips to the dreamroom. Dr Wong told me i shld take 'steroids' which is norm used to kill the cough bug. Really? Steroids..u kidding me. R u talking abt the same one which atheletes always take to boost up their energy level?? If yes then i want more then i can clean my so ever messy house while recovering! I swear he said steroids and he frowned when he told me that. He said "Maybe u shld take this for abt 3days..we'll c how". I didnt ask further except just nodding and left the room soon after he willingly said i shld be on MC.

When i took the medicine the name indicated was not steroids but read as somthing else..handwriting blur so i can't make up wht it is.

7hrs have passed since i took it, feel so much better, here i am blogging and sucking my blackcurrant lozenges happily. Maybe Dr, u r so right. I needed that. I actually changed all the curtains and managed to wash them! Seriously! First i was feeling energertic.Second i felt i had to revamp this house cuz it feel like revamping myself from being sick to being fresh! Crazy i tell u!

But on sunday after werk managed to attend Bik Ratna's wedding at Choa Chu Kang. Pretty bride,almost full attendance frm Misri's (my nyai) family. Took a group pic which i'm still waiting for ms marlina to email to me. Thks to khalid whom have forgotten to bring our own cam.I tink he's actuali embarassed abt the 'unique'(Read:cam which has a rubberband with it) cam we had. hah hah.

However managed to grab this pic from her friendster.

With Hubby, Marlina & Fiance

Dont we look like Fantastic 4 and i am 'The Thing'?

Khalid was supposed to bring another set of b.k but he brought this maroon one. Hmm...
Pack with weddings every week this month!

Hope be able to attend all. Anyway to all, have a great week ahead. May Friday comes earlier than expected.

2007-03-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

I received an email of this pic. I tink it looks like me.

The towel, the hair and the thoughts of weighing myself in that way.

I tink i desperately needed the injection of realism. That until i start exercising and eat less fast food, I'm gonna stay in this way forever. Fat or maybe much fatter.

But but but..i'm so lazy and the tak kuasa.

Arghh...!!!!!!! Someone, please kick me on my butt!

2007-03-04T17:53:00.001+08:00

Hans Isaac is so Mc'Dreamy with his dance moves in this trailer for Qabil Khusry Qabil Gham. Check it out

2007-03-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

*Dream vs Pills*

On the last day of feb, i had this very weird but not less funny dream.

I had to put this on record. I though think it might the effect of all those pills that i've been popping these few days.

See, on the last off day. There was noone at home,kitties were flat asleep. Eagerly i started to clean all around the hse. I was mopping,cleaning,scrubing for at least 4hrs. Well, wht i didnt expect was the 'reward' which come later.... acute pain all around my fingers hands legs. Pendek citer wire satu badan semua longgar. And courtesy of Khalid, i got the flu & sore throat from him oso. So comes d popping pills part. I tried to take anarex which is suppose to b for muscle relax but it didnt work(being sick most of the time, i'm very familiar wit all types of painkiller). Till mon i was already popping a few diff kinds of medicine, for muscles strain,sore throat lah..blah blah. A visit to the doctor on tues helps a bit but more pills though.

Thus this dream. ( hahah)

In the dream i was in a blue room(hospital i tink?), there seems to be quite a few people but memories were vague. I was sitting down on a chair, typing like now. Guess wht i was typing? A prescription. Not just the normal kind but something that actually allows u to enter wht is the sickness u had,(i rmbr very clearly ok!). After entering the nonsense details, i rmbr a man told me to go to counter 80(give no somemore) to collect 'THE PILL'. Me like blur queen blindly follow and went to collect it. Guess wht. By then i realised that 'THE PILL' is actually something i wld called the future medicine in science. Coz like a truly kaypoh-chi in that dream, i asked the 'pharmacist', "this pill is for wht?" She replied "this pill u just take, it will cure the whtever sickness tht u hv entered earlier". I hyperly said "oh really? serious ah?".

The dream ended when i was awoken by the chinese funeral downstairs. Yes i was sleeping during the day coz i was on MC. It was near to magrib. But i cant stop thinking of the weird and merepek dream that i had earlier till this moment.

I hope this dream of mine will come true though.

Kudos to the future creation of 'THE PILL'.

2007-02-26T19:54:00.001+08:00

*All a'bout Amazing race*

I was surfing around for stuff on the Amazing race all-star and accidentally read this.

FYI this was post before the first episode was even shown. And the first two elimination seems to be wht it is indicated.

All right, then. Higlight this only if you don't mind being spoiled on the eliminations:

John Vito and Jill go first.

Kevin and Drew go second.

David and Mary go third.

Rob and Amber go fourth.

Teri and Ian go fifth.

Joe and Bill go sixth.

Uchenna and Joyce go seventh.

Oswald and Danny go eighth and last.

Arghhh..i cant belive it?? Wht happened to Romber? I know.Rob sucks but he's da man. Hehe

Wait. Who shall i root to win then? Danielle & Eric? hmm..

2007-02-25T19:10:00.000+08:00

Who else is feeling like this besides me? I can feel the deep melancholy in this room as i am typing.

Should i be happy instead of complaining. I'm not sure on the happy part but i can so-cfrmed that i can list all my unhappiness here.

Ok,dont get me wrong. When i meant unhappiness it is equals to either WORK or feeling SICK for me. Evrything else is perfect.

Lets not talk about the latter though.

March is approaching soon. I have to crack my brains again wht gift i shld get for hubby. I have never known someone so happy cuz he's tuning 30 soon. Reason being? He can well take the Taxi license he has always dream of since several years ago. Extra income i welcome with big wide hands but working part time on a weekend? Nah...not so.

I hope he changed his mind though. Woman. $$ nak tapi malas nak kerje. I wish i cld be like oreo & cookie who sleeps 90% of the day. Hah hah. Enjoying a simple royal life.

*looking at d time* Oh no its only 7pm.5 more dreadful hrs to go to leave this place!! I'm sure u can figure out wher i am.

2007-02-19T01:15:00.000+08:00

Several days ago, i was told something. A possible reason why something that i've been wanting is not happening. I wish i could dismiss it as an endearing quirk but i just couldnt.

And who else but ME is the real reason.

Itz still going through my mind now.

2007-02-16T12:29:00.000+08:00

On valentine's day, the scene of lovely ladies carrying a bunch of flowers just seems familiar. Every year on this day, couple celebrate the unity of their love with each other. When i flip the new paper, some even put love notes for their family or friends. Isnt it a warm gesture.

Valentine's day was celebrated only during courtship, at least for me. Exchanging of gifts,cards and flowers. They are still nicely kept for memories sake (minus the flowers of coz). So now few years later not a single gifts there is, not even as sms sent.He he..there was no effort at all. The day just breezely passed. Maybe marriage is already a unity after all, so there is need to celebrate V-day as it is. Utmostly as a muslim we are not suppose to even aknowledge it. But heck, it is the 20th century.

Anyway, a lil girl no less than 9yrs of age was selling paper flowers at my door last night. She knock repeatedly without stopping even for a second till i open the door. She quickly sold her story to me, showing me sthing that looks like a report which includes an IC no and address..blah blah. She said her parents have no $ to pay the bills and her house has been burnt down. Seriously the paper flower looks ugly and she's selling it at $15!

So i told her politely no but like a chatterbox she keep goin on and on. She left me with no choice, i said NO and close the door. And guess wht? i cld heard her shouting 'Kurang ajar seh!' before she walk off. So i tght maybe i was too harsh but there was nothing i cld do. 15mins later she returned and said she will sell the flowers for $6 and keep insisting. At tht moment, i was already pissed off. I said no again politely but she kept insisting again. Khalid was there too, maybe it works, she walk off soon after.

She left but we cant stop talking about her. Did her parent ask her to do this? so pity at this age..roaming arnd at nite ..knocking on strangers home. And even if her parents was there,hiding, they should be the one knocking on my door not their children.

2007-02-07T17:20:00.000+08:00

Woahh..how time flies. its almost to the second week to Feb 2007.

Gremblin have left us. She's gone when mil check on her on one of the wee hrs in jan.
I have never seen Khalid tht sad before.ever.

Good thing several weeks ago we hv planned to spent last weekend in KL.
Reached there on sat arnd 11am by car.
KL was the same like the previous times. Things are cheap. Pudu is the same. Some buildings remain unbuild like forever. heheh

I had my camera but i didnt take any pics except for the one below.

view frm the An-CasA Hotel superior room. RM210 nett per nite.

My intention was to put pics on my so-the-boring blog and also update my friendster but a lazy bum will always remain one.

Time & money spent leisurely.

We were more than happy when we left on mon. (psst: ladies they hv lotsa of Guess bag at petalingst,chk it out!)

And tues was spent literally watching wentworth miller PRISON'S BREAK. Non stop for 10hrs! That is a record. My butt was stuck on thesofa except for toilet breaks. Thanks Grace for the Dvds!

Today was a self declare off day i must say. Ssshh..dont tell anyone if u know ok? Coz i dont wanna be called a silly queen again.

Ta!

2007-01-31T22:17:00.000+08:00

On sunday i was working when Khalid called and in a shaky tone, he quickly asked to check the nearest animal clinic near jurong. His dearest cat of 14yrs, Gremblin has sd'ly turned numb. He cant move both his legs and hands. Gremblin was actually in the middle of a grooming session at J.point. Someone frm the petshop called to infrm of his sudden numbness. At first i thought it was not serious and brushed it off as maybe she's just scared and bcoz of her age,probably she's a bit weak but will be better soon. But i was wrong, till now almost 4days, gremblin still in the same state. Went with Khalid to fetch her from the animal hospital last night after being hospitalized there for 2days.

Its so heart-wrenching, my heart gasp in pain when i saw her lying motionless, but her big round green eyes were still the same. So adorable.She's able to meow and move lil bit of her head. When we brought her home, to mil's place, there were slight movements from her legs. Evryone was saying maybe there is chance of her getting better, but deep down, i already felt it was not at the least fair for her be in this situation. No animal should. They are just too innocent. D Doc said this few weeks will be critical, if she gets better, means good news and the same time if her condition worsen,we have to consider putting her to sleep.

Gremblin, we all love u. Please get better.

2007-01-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

It seems that updating this blog is more like a weekly routine. I guess. Coz i cant be bothered to swtich on the pc when i'm at home esp on weekdays. Weekends are exception coz around tis time while most other couples are busy spending time out there, i have to settle for this. I'm not complaining that Khalid is a one soccer freak,MUST watch soccer every weekend or even on late nites on weekdays. After several years of marriage i have learnt to accept.

He he.

Have been stuck at home since wed which means 3days at home plus my 2DAYS MC. Dont even bother to ask wht happen. Silly me. So i tght today is the DAY. The DAY to exercise and stretch out all my sleepy veins and muscles. My stomach seems so fat and bloated probably due to eating non-stop when i'm indoor.

Started the day early.Left home at 9am, decided to eat BK at the newly open branch which is also a drive-thru at east coast park. Itz quite big but parking is only free for the first 15mins or per entry is $2.80 which i think is quite ex.

Left for Mustapha centre after that. Hmm..so much things to see & buy there but left only with a couple of VCDs for tommorow AM shift! Hopefuly i wont be bored. Also when to Plaza Sing to wherelse but Dorothy Perkins and also to check out Daiso!$2 always! hehe.. veryvery cheap and manymany things. Must GO!

And my eating binge did not stop at BK, made a 'stopover' at Swensens and ate 'Earthquake'.

Oh no..i do not want to weigh myself!! Even now after at least 9hrs later, i still feel bloated. And yes Mr 'M' is always there. Just ate one meal of him 15mins ago. Cant blame anyone but ME!

Ok, sdly i feel giddy.

2007-01-21T00:25:00.000+08:00

Wow, i 'm feeling more than happy. Its saturday, here i am blissfully spending my time catching and watching youtubes videos of my fav dramas tht sadly wont arrived in Spore for at least a few months time!

Time seems to be ticking more faster than normal when ur spending time like this..i didnt realised it was already 4hrs since i sat on this chair,dutifuly watching one video after another, drolling over smallville's tom welling. Heheh

And eating the all those sinfully craps..ice-cream..chocalates...urghh.. I can't stop! tell me about losing wght!

Nevermind.

Earlier we went to watch Blood diamond. It was absolutely a good movie. Ok trust me on this. Go watch it.

Its so saddening..mixed with some funny moments and not forgetting action!

But the not-so-cold aircon in the cinema was getting on my nerves. For a moment when i was watching Leonardo Di caprio running and sweating i tght i was in the movie! I could have been more frustated if the movie sucks but thankfully it didnt.

Ok...i wanna watch more videos. I can still hear the loud TV volume from outside , meaning football is still on. So till khalid switch off the TV, more time and more videos for me. My eyes seems puffy but i aint sleepy.

2007-01-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

15 mins to midnite and i cant sleep. Just couldnt.
And i have to wake up in less than 6hrs to report to work for 7am shift.
Urghh... Nevermind.

Maybe my brain iz still cracking on wht i shld prepared to give for Jihan's solemnization cum Sat. She's Khalid cousin. Mil has asked me for a favour to help in doing 2 'gubahan' for her. It was so easy if you asked me say like 3 or 4yrs ago as i was still having the jiwa2 pengantin feeling and have lotsa of ideas. But now i'm cracking and scratching my head as to wht i shall do. When i was stray blogging, i saw few blogs which have pics and such services, but i cant find any now.

And talking about stray blogging, it seems that every blog is talking about giving birth, being pregnant or getting pregnant. Hehehe..i guess thts why people always highlight that 'If u dont like wht i am writing then please leave" I did just that. Am i mean? Or just being jealous..we'll leave it as that.

2007-01-01T19:51:00.000+08:00

Went to catch BORAT earlier at gv Marina. I heard a lot abt this movie..how hilarious and funny it is. I guess i went with too much of expectations. I tght the movie was funny at some parts.. but overall it was not worth $9.50. Maybe sthing that u'll watch on a boring weekend to brighten ur day up and waste time.

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New year! New resolutions! Last year resolution was losing weight and it still remain stucked in the list.This yr's resolution is .... emm..*think think think*actually for the first time i dont have any....*bit lips*. 2 0 0 7 i gladly embraced. With no resolutions no hopes, no expectations at all. Insya- Allah i just need more luck..more $$ and bless with gd health..

Happy New Year!

2006-12-25T12:33:00.000+08:00

Aunt flo is here again.I'm not too happy to meet her.

Now, i'm not one desperado to be waiting to touch my li'l one little hands. I'm pretty contented with life as it is but some circumstances will results me in feeling like this...like shit.

Oh god, can you just please allow me to get over this soon. I dont wanna wait anymore.

Whatever ur decision i accept it but dont let me wait. Waiting can kill me.

2006-12-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

L. is for the Long days we shared together,kissing and caressing, not holding back, and allowing whatever.

O. is for the Outstanding journey this emotion has guided us on,knowing deep in our hearts we can continue,because tomorrow will come once the day is gone.

V. is for the Vivaciousness that lies within the both of us.I can rest assure of my heart sake,because with it, you're the only one I trust.

E. is for the Everlasting touch of your heartfelt love deep in my soul.A feeling worth more to me than gold.

Love is everything.

Love is nourishing.

Love is whole heartedness.

Love is being truly blessed.

Love is a virtue.

Therefore, with all of my soul... I Love You! Happy 4th Anniversary hubby!

Insya-Allah we'll be there for each other forever.

2006-12-22T19:11:00.000+08:00

Visited vivocity the second time last wednesday with Bikmah & her son Yushua. Where else but to Toy'rus to look for his birthday gift. Even though it was a weekday therz like zillion of people. And took the NEL there..that was my third time taking it. Very BIG seats rite? Gd for people like me! And bcoz Christmas is approaching, lotsa of sales going on. MANGO was packed so is GUESS. Just walk in front and *jeling* je coz it was too crowded and i decided not to join.

Yushua..having a gd time birthday boy?

While eating lunch at Burger King, saw the fountain full with kids running arnd. it looks dirty though. Eww..but we managed to bury our feets at the semi-swimming pool(dunno whtz it call?) at the roof top....nice view and fresh air to suck in esp for me whom hv been hit by the cough bug till now. Planning to do a 3rd visit to the doctor tommorow.

Emm...n i got a Body Shop gift courtesy of Jumi frm exchanging of Christmas gift at work. Thks babe! really love it.